Finished the rough draft of my index about 11:30 pm. Now have through Thursday to turn it into the final version.

Huh. I'm a freakin' freelancer; I suppose I could watch them all tomorrow morning, and then be productive. It seems wrong, somehow. I never watch TV during the day.

I'm sitting here awake at 4am, thinking how awful I'm gonna feel at 9am when I'm supposed to start work. I could sleep in; who's gonna know? But I still feel vaguely guilty if I'm not at my laptop from 9am to 5pm, despite that I'm often working at 9pm, or midnight, even.

I have the TV on during the day, but not anything I have to really pay attention to. Top Gear and Kitchen Nightmares, usually.

I'm working now, and I'll be back at my desk no later than 10 AM tomorrow. I also have some work on a jobsite tomorrow afternoon. To me freelance just means that I work all the time.

Yay Samuel Eric (and Stephanie and family)!

I am still trying to read Baudrillard (the question "Why???" keeps coming to mind). I realised that I have seven weeks until an incredibly important presentation. I will have no life until March. But I will do a good presentation!

Am very behind on Downtown Abbey. We're distracted with catching up with Fringe, which we're even more behind on.

I have two observations on cats. One is a modification of an earlier observation.

Having cats means never trusting a counter top you just cleaned if you turned your back to it.

I would rather herd cats than hitch them to a cart. Big cats doubly so.

Having cats means never trusting a counter top you just cleaned if you turned your back to it.

Having cats means learning to stop caring about the counters and thinking of opportunities to enhance your immune system.

To me freelance just means that I work all the time

Which is one of the reasons you won't catch my ass freelancing. The other reason is the idea that I might hire people and be responsible for their income stability. I'm not down with either.

I can only maintain a modicum of a work-life balance when I have someone to push back on. And even then, I'm not great.

As for other people--I can be a good boss, but I can't be the person that helps them pay the rent. Not that directly. Too chickenshit for that.

The other reason is the idea that I might hire people and be responsible for their income stability. I'm not down with either.

Yep. I have that fun too now that I have employees. It is stressful but I also find it rewarding.

To me freelance just means that I work all the time.

Yes, this. BUT I'm generally doing it in my home, with no one dictating what I wear, how loud I play music or my hours. I get into flow states when I'm working; don't eat, don't sleep, leave me alone, whenever I want. As long as I make deadlines and produce, that's all that matters.

And I am SO MUCH HAPPIER for it. I just need more clients. Or more expensive projects. But I'm getting there!

ita !, ITA (hee, that always cracks me up) -- I doubt I will ever get big enough to need an employee. MAYBE a VA someday. MAYBE. But s/he will be a freelancer, too, and not a salaried employee.

It is stressful but I also find it rewarding.

I don't mind the other parts of it (I'm now remembering that being a manager can be rewarding if you have decent management yourself), but I lack the confidence to take risks on behalf of other people.