I'm so sorry Shir.
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{{{Shir}}}
{{{Shir}}}
Sorry for your loss, Shir.
Thinking of you, Shir.
OK, fuck wanting his library.
It's ok to want his library, as it's something you like, and something of him. Best of Both Worlds.
I just want to stop crying. I just wanna be OK for tomorrow. I can deal later, please.
{{{{Shir}}}}
{{{Shir}}}, I'm so sorry for your loss.
Shir, I'm sorry for your loss.
Much love and comfort to you and your family, Shir.
Things I managed to do tonight:
Take a shower
Pack a bag for the whatever may come (there won't be funeral, I have no idea about Shiva'h: he asked to be cremated. It's very rare here). Roommate was very handy with tips regarding what I should carry around: now I got sunglasses and 3 toilet paper rolls
Reduced crying
Sending emails to my lecturers to whom I need to hand in some papers. Roommate was also extremely handy with that, making me sound human. I'll try to finish that goddamn paper tomorrow, otherwise my grandfather's death will look like a lie. Nevertheless, I'll go to uni to hand in 2 papers I wrote earlier.
Thanks, guys. I never lost a grandparent before (well, 2 of them were dead for a long time before I was born. Still). It's all new. I may have wrote here some things that were highly affected by this new and confusing thing.
It's 2:00am. I should go to bed.