{{{{{Gud}}}}}

You know, that's right. ita just would have worn it somewhere.

So true. A silver ballgown skirt would be totally up her alley.

got busy and took care of the bills too late which is a typical mistake for me. I hate the way I make mistakes. I swear the world would be a lot better off without me.

Totally understand hating making mistakes (online billpay is SO much better for me than mailing checks used to be...and yet I still occasionally see the bill in the mail, think "oh yes, gotta do that", and let it sit there for like two weeks). But "world better off without me"? Oh hell no. What everyone else said--that's not a healthy statement. That's not a true statement. And I hope you can get some help to let you see that it's not.

t's possible that a support group or a therapist could help you from falling into the sort of spiral where being mad at yourself for your last mistake distracts you and sets you up to make more mistakes

This too! Or just thinking about your "mistakes" all the time and having one mistake ruin your mood WAY out of proportion to what it should (admittedly, I have not been to therapy. But I recognize I probably should at some point here...and in the meantime, antidepressants help me a lot, especially knowing I have a huge family history of it)

We also have online bill pay, plus reminders from online bill pay, plus calendar reminders.

You guys, if we don't hear from Nashville today, I am going to end up in a corner in the fetal position, rocking slowly back and forth.

I'm on my way to the office today despite not being fully recovered from this cold. I may regret this. I have cough drops, lemon ginger tea, and DayQuil in my backpack.

You guys are making such a good case for therapy, I may get back on the hunt for a therapist!

My remaining student loan payment is too much hassle to automate, and I almost never get the emails they claim to send me monthly. So every few months, I forget to pay it, and on the due date (seemingly) they send both me and my cosigner (my father) a letter in the mail. What the actual fuck? But guess what? None of that shows up on my credit report, because I do pay within the month, and there aren't even late fees. So, what seems like a significant fuckup (they send a LETTER to my FATHER), actually matters not at all.

...oh. maybe it's actually due this week.

Gud, the 2nd strategy on shrift's first link seems especially appropriate and shouldn't add to your scheduling burden.

Change the way you use self-talk so that you’re being kinder to yourself.

More details on self-talk are here. [link]

You have so much more value than you seem to realize.

After yesterday, I just wanted to mention that I actually feel about 75% better today. Maybe the therapeutic complaining worked! (Not just my posts here; I vented at length to Tim about my trip to Colorado.)

My sinuses also don't hurt, so I'm not calling the doctor right now, but I promise I'll call if they start hurting again.

And it's supposed to be 60 here, so I am by god taking a walk, even if it's a short one (I have a TON of work) and even if it rains. I just want to get outside into the warm weather!

t edit Still no Kato pictures, but I can confirm he's still cute, even if he felt compelled to barf yesterday.

I've got all my bills on a rotating schedule in the To Do list on my tablet.

Glad you feel better, Steph. That trip does seem like it would take a week to recover from.

You know what would be amazing? If I could print anything out. The IT situation at my job is....not the best.

Gudanov, I suspect that you are making a fairly usual amount of mistakes but that there are some factors that make the mistakes you make especially burdensome. Talking with a therapist would help you figure out if your mistakes are ordinary ones that are being magnified by stress, or if you have some challenge such as ADHD or depression that causes you to be distracted and so make more mistakes. If it is the first, the therapist can assist you in handling the stress. If it is the second, the therapist can assist you in finding resources, tools, and strategies to keep you on track. As someone with ADHD, I can say that the calendar on my iPad has made a world of difference for me; and, there are dozens of tools out there to help with organization.