I exhibit all the alcoholic tendencies of my kin (all of my kin), only with unfermented grains.

There is a similar chemical imbalance in the brain with genetic alcoholism and ADD. StY is ADHD and at any time before the age of ten he would have enthusiastically mugged another kid for a candy bar. StE skipped the sugar problems, but past puberty he had alcoholic tendencies. The sugar affected them (and me) the same way.

ETA: "How much did you drink?" All of it.

"How many cookies did you eat?" All of them. And all the ice cream. And those candy bars you had hidden in the laundry room? Yeah those too. Got any M&Ms?

Dinner was dark meat turkey chop with steamed chard and campari tomatoes with fresh basil. Really nice.

mmm, Campari.

I had takeout indian food.

I splurged on a chicken caesar flatbread from the local pizza place. And an IPA. NOM.

FINALLY made plans with Taylor. She's coming for dinner next saturday (after a marathon day for me.) She's bringing her boyfriend;) He's only a year older than her, but heading to college in the fall.

Anyway, I think I'm going to see if I can get bulk bbq and biscuits from the bbq guy at the market, make some coleslaw and grab TJ's dessert. And maybe potato salad. My memory of teenage boys is that no matter how much food I provide, it will be consumed. He'll go away hungry no matter what. And I'm not used to cooking for more than me.

Find it charming that she so so wants me to meet this boy.

I made $250 today and yesterday on my rummage sale! Yay for selling old crap! But I still have plenty of crap leftover. Four big bins for the Goodwill and one bin for the consignment shop.

This vendor: [link]

ETA: "How much did you drink?" All of it.

"How many cookies did you eat?" All of them. And all the ice cream. And those candy bars you had hidden in the laundry room? Yeah those too. Got any M&Ms?

Totally this.

But when I abstain, I'm okay. It really, truly is 'one is one too many.'

Thanks for mentioning the chemical imbalance of it. I'm going to do some research. I sometimes fall into beating myself up for 'knowing better' and still falling off the wagon. Some clinical support might help remind me of just how important restraint really is.

And, funnily enough, someone just asked me today if I have ADD, in conjunction with gluten intolerance. I don't, that I know of, but can totally see the connection.

bonny, do you have celiac disease?

Am. Tired.

Haven't had dinner yet, but perhaps I shouldn't have dinner at all? I am exhausted and there is nothing I want other than pasta.

I spent 16 hours over the past two saturdays learning about ABT (not American Ballet Theater but Applied Behavioral Therapy, which is like dog training but for problem kids). It's the only thing we can get covered by regional center. Really, what I want is a speech therapist and an occupational therapist/feeding therapist.

Why can't I be hungry at 8 when I'm at the market? After looking up that site, I SO WANT THEIR BISCUITS AND BBQ from this am. Wahhh.

Unfortunately, during the hours of market, I'm very much not hungry. Oh, I'll impulse buy fruits and vegs (see the pickling cukes-oh, need to get jars- and the cherries AND apricots AND strawberries. And I got clementines later. Um.) but prepared food if not already on my plan is rejected.

I had sushi. It was decent.

Just watched a couple movies on HBO. HBOCP wouldn't happen to stand for HBO Coloured People, would it? No? Anyway, The Best Man was on it, and I came away from it thinking "those are real people" and "where did the black, non-Tyler-Perry, movie go?" And, separately, from Going The Distance, not excited by Drew Barrymore. Her lisp bothers me. And I resent her bralessness, because I'm petty like that.