The voices in my head are back, and I'm very happy. About four days after I started taking the Zoloft, everything went quiet. I've normally got a commentary/daydream/soundtrack running in the background, but for three days there was nothing. Not even the my thoughts were making themselves known. Horrible. I'd rather have meltdowns than echoes.
connie, I felt like that when I first got out of the hospital and was on...well different medicine than I'm on now... I was sitting in my living room alone and no running commentay/daydreaming anything. I thought "huh, so this is what normal people are like. Damn this is boring." Luckily it all evened out. But I noticed after being on the Straterra (for ADD) and then off of it and back on that my mental "talkiness" is dialed down but I don't notice it as much so it's easier for me to concentrate. Which is good.
That sitting on the couch moment happened NINE years ago in June. I almost can't believe it. Last night I was looking through Facebook and seeing people I knew from high school and middle school and feeling inadequate and really down because I haven't gotten so far. I'm a receptionist with no college degree who could use some social skills and some lessons on Being a Better Friend to Others. But then I look at how far I've actually come and it's pretty damn amazing. So I have to keep reminding myself of that.