::high fives Vortex's Dad on the astral plane::

Happy Birthday, Vortex!

I'm watching Animaniacs clips. This seems to be a better distraction from pain than Elsie is. I just watched Ballad of Magellan, which I'd somehow never seen before. Can't stop giggling. [link]

How much pain are painkillers supposed to actually kill? Because these definitely make me feel better, but they don't make the pain go totally away. My mom said that, if they don't make the pain go totally away, then I should call the doctor and try something different.

There are only so many painkillers for each type of pain, and they all have their side effects. Sometimes what you get is all you can get.

Happy Birthday, Vortex! Sorry to hear about the traumatic parent revelation.

Can't get to sleep. Painkiller making me woozy, but not tired or taking away enough pain to sleep. Woozy is weird.

Had my worst earthquake since I moved to California. Shit fell off the shelves and broke at home. Luckily I was at work, it was loud and shaky, nice foot massage actually, but only two things fell off a shelf and nothing broke.

Yikes, Laga. I hope al of our CA peeps are safe.

Hil, Pain-ma.

I'm so tired. mearaing, part 1:

I keep eating cookies. I'm feeling slightly panicky already. I know that sugar and chocolate both increase my anxiety. Still eating cookies.

I find nothing's wrong with your logic. Maybe I iz dum 2. And no-pain~ma. You guys, with the pains and the insomnia - it's so unfair. I get the helplessness factor, and I wish I could do something to make it better.

Raq, job~ma.

pouring with rain here

Wanna switch? It's a 100+ heatwave in here. Even wore a skirt to uni. And amazed at other girls' definition to "skirt"/"clothes". This is university, for the love of God. With religious people attending it. But nonetheless, the fact that it's university, for itself, means you pay some respect to the institute. This isn't a public beach.

And now:

Yay omnis and sleeping!
Congrats, Aims!
And last but not lease, happy belated birthday, Vortex!

TBC soon.

mearaing, part 2:

Sean, let me stress the "you're not alone part". And underline it. Perhaps mark it with a marker, YMMV.

But I'm stressing hard about money, and feeling blue and lonely the last few days.

This too is me, more times than I want it to be. My problem (or actually, the people in my life's problem) is that I don't let anyone to come near me at times like this. I prefer to go through the dark and angst alone, I don't want my friends and family in the line of fire (and I wish they'll learn to back off by now. I just need few hours by myself from time to time).

As for dating, yeah, I agree parties and socializing, in general, is the key. As someone who's currently laughing at the face of the idea of a relationship (I may have said it before, but the guy who wants me will have to run faster than me. Because when being offered, I tend to run away, fast). And lately, with the very slow process of "guess what, honey? Relationships can be good, too", I grow by the idea of dating. Hey, there's a way to regulate sex with not-really-seeing-the-other-person-much and make sure it won't be abusive towards anyone, I'll take it. I blame my life for not letting me see one couple with good relationship (= one I wanted to myself) until, let's say, 4 months ago. I just didn't, and a big part of me still don't, believe in love. I honestly thought it was all a lie, a deception, something people are telling themselves to feel less alone in this world.

And then - shh, don't tell anyone! - came "Amends", and I thought to myself "hey. If these two are fighting so hard for a relationship, when the whole universe is against them, maybe it's worth a go. Even if it's all a deception".

Agh, I'm sorry. I meant to start this as a support message, and it became a meme.

Anyway, Sean - not alone, hon. I wish that thought suffices to take comfort in. And judging by your pixels, you're worthy.