Megan thanks for the food and cookbook suggestions.

I don't know if it was something I ate yesterday or I have a stomach bug but I am miserable right now. I had a mini meltdown when I got home and M was really sweet and supportive and trying to be helpful and I had to finally say I am not looking for solutions I'm just venting and emotional (I've been very emotional this past week ). He ended up going to Walmart and buying a lot of healthy stuff. Although some of it I'm not sure if it will work for me but I'm going to try it. He got whole wheat bagels, some swedish whole grain crackers, Weather's candies, activa yogurt, vegan ice cream, whipped honey spread. Just all kinds of stuff

This morning I had most of the bagel with the tiniest smear of honey spread and some silk coconut milk. I'll see what happen. I'm going to try and not make myself crazy and just go back to trying to make small changes instead of super drastic ones.

I have had almost no caffeine since Tuesday evening. And no carbonated drinks which is huge for me.