I am so glad that I was able to meet Todd several times. She is missed.

Huge explosion in Palm Springs at a fertility center yesterday. Right by the Desert Regional Hospital (I was birthed there) which was also visually damaged. (Indian Ave and just south of Vista Chino for meara, K & D and others familiar with the area.)

The suspect who was killed in the explosion was from 29 Palms. A huge area of the city was evacuated by the FBI seemingly because of the risk of there being more explosives which could go off.

According to his audio manifesto, he did not consent to being born. So there is that.

It's just never good when my home area shows up on CNN. (Except the town hall with Jay Obernolte with people yelling "No King," because that was pretty awesome.)

Edit: No eggs or embryos were harmed.

According to his audio manifesto, he did not consent to being born. So there is that.

It's so so weird. A bizarrely nihilistic and self-involved philosophy. Why not go talk to your parents rather than commit an act of terrorism?

Ugh.

In other news, I have started listening to Mike Duncan's "The Martian Revolution", which is the current season of The Revolutions Podcast. And while most of it was written last year, it's so incredibly relevant to our current circumstances. Worth a listen if you like that kind of podcast.

Today is Bay to Breakers in San Francisco.

Last year I had the surreal experience of trying to find a crossing in the parade route so I could dash through people jogging in dinosaur costumes to take some of JZ's ashes to her mother, who was staying with Jacqueline's sibs at an Air BnB across the Panhandle.

It was a weird capper to the Memorial Weekend, after which I collapsed with relief and exhaustion.

I would not have felt so much relief if I had known how difficult the following six months were going to be with Matilda.

But here we are a year later and...she's still depressed and unmotivated by anything that isn't socializing with her friends or seeing her boyfriend.

It's so so weird. A bizarrely nihilistic and self-involved philosophy.

Right? I honestly think people should have the right to die if they choose. But I'm pretty much 100% against the domestic terrorism. At least he was the only fatality.

It's so so weird. A bizarrely nihilistic and self-involved philosophy.

Anti-Natalism! It's a big thing with the horror writer Thomas Ligotti (who was a big influence on the first season of True Detective).

ION, I just snapped at Matilda and told her to get out of bed (after 11 hours of sleep) and empty the dishwasher that I asked her to do two days ago, followed by a tersely toned announcement that it's been a month since she got back from Japan and she hasn't done any of the shit we agreed she would do this summer (volunteer, work, take classes - something/anything besides fucking off).

So frustrated with her.

Timelies all!

Thanks for the well wishes. My mom is out of ICU and in a regular room. She's doing much better now, though I don't know when she'll get to go home. Hopefully they'll figure out why she keeps getting these UTIs....

Anti-Natalism!

Yep, in the extreme efilism section, and man, you can go down a rabbit hole with that and some of the weird antnat splinters from EA, which sort of include the Zizians. Some people are deeply broken.

I saw about the explosion. So sad people were injured, what a shitshow. I totally know where that is. I saw it on TikTok first, oddly. But man, it would super suck for a lot of folks if he’d managed to blow up a bunch of embryos and stuff.

David, good luck. No idea what works for that.

David, good luck. No idea what works for that.

Well, she got out of bed and emptied the dishwasher and put the sinkfull of dirty dishes in, and I fed her breakfast and now we're going to clean the Guinea Pig cage. And she told me her friend Alison's job was hiring and she'd try to get a job there.

So, sometimes terse is the way to go.

Not that it fixes her. But she's not inert.

So frustrated with her.

I completely understand and know you have to hold her accountable for her own good. On the other hand, I remember well that at her age that socializing with my friends and hanging with my boyfriend were the only things on my list.