Compassionate boy. Oof, indeed.
Illyria: We cling to what is gone. Is there anything in this life but grief? Wesley: There's love. There's hope...for some. There's hope that you'll find something worthy...that your life will lead you to some joy...that after everything...you can still be surprised. Illyria: Is that enough? Is that enough to live on?
'Shells'
Natter 69: Practically names itself.
Off-topic discussion. Wanna talk about corsets, duct tape, or physics? This is the place. Detailed discussion of any current-season TV must be whitefonted.
JenP - Jan 18, 2012 4:03:44 pm PST #17103 of 30001
§ ita § - Jan 18, 2012 4:07:44 pm PST #17104 of 30001
Well not canonically, no, but this is transformative fiction.
Oh, man, Cash. That's a good son you've got, but I don't envy you raising him. I mean, I envy you the joy parts, but when kids make you talk about the heavy stuff so young...
Jesse - Jan 18, 2012 4:10:01 pm PST #17105 of 30001
Sometimes I trip on how happy we could be.
Such a good-hearted kid.
SARA. You are not an imposter! Go to Spain.
§ ita § - Jan 18, 2012 4:11:15 pm PST #17106 of 30001
Well not canonically, no, but this is transformative fiction.
No sara, don't go to Spain.
::shrug::
I tried. It didn't feel real. You should go, then.
brenda m - Jan 18, 2012 4:12:21 pm PST #17107 of 30001
If you're going through hell/keep on going/don't slow down/keep your fear from showing/you might be gone/'fore the devil even knows you're there
Darby never asks those kind of tough questions.
(Though she did come out of her room looking Very Concerned when the cat was being axe murdered having her nails trimmed.)
JenP - Jan 18, 2012 4:13:35 pm PST #17108 of 30001
You are totally not an impostor! I've met you, and you are you, and you should be sent to Spain. Stat! Or, you know, in the Spring.
sarameg - Jan 18, 2012 4:26:02 pm PST #17109 of 30001
I've always coordinated from stateside when we have these meetings not!here. And I know my boss is trying to position me for more projects, less daily ops, more leadership (something I am totally on board with.) So this is a part of that. The last year or so has been deadly, because all I've been doing is fighting fires (sometimes literally,) not really advancing. I've just been needed a lot in spells such that I haven't been able to start anything new because then something else blows up. So I'm fighting against that mental space.
sarameg - Jan 18, 2012 4:35:18 pm PST #17110 of 30001
Wow. Writing that out... explains a lot of the weird headspace I've been in this past fall. The firefighting died down, but I was still at alert status. And felt futless as a result.
Jesse - Jan 18, 2012 4:38:42 pm PST #17111 of 30001
Sometimes I trip on how happy we could be.
Reading it made me think even more about how I need a new job. I got burned out on fires and am now just treading water. Oy.
sarameg - Jan 18, 2012 4:49:02 pm PST #17112 of 30001
Yeah, sorry? It is hard to break out of that mode once you get into it. It's a special work ptsd.