No, t, you're totally right. I don't have money to spend and I don't need anything. I just spent a hyuge amount of money (that I did have, combination of savings and Christmas) on the bow, which I wanted for a long time and researched and bought responsibly. I should now have fun with the thing that I bought.
It's just, I dunno how to explain it really. We have this sweet new car. I wore nail polish and makeup. I actually gave gifts to the family. I went to a store with a friend and bought something. It just felt like I was, I dunno, successfully faking being a normal suburban person. Like if I'd continued as a programmer I'd have this other life where I would buy normal things and be judged successful in my lifestyle by other people.
The truth is I don't want all that. And when I had it I wasn't particularly happy. But in my everyday life where I get worked up over a fifty cent coupon, I feel so distant from that mythical successful image. And normally I forget. But spending Christmas season up there I couldn't avoid it. I know it's just me being vulnerable to commercialism.
(But I still want nail polish. It was free with shipping! Or I could spend $25 and get shipping free!) But I don't need it.
Liese, I don't think from anything you've said that you really want that life.
Maybe if you feed her beside her crate, or something, where she can't get away from doing something she wants, but it has to be RIGHT THERE?
For someone who doesn't want pets, you've good methodology. Of course people tell me that I'm good with kids and I don't need any of those of my own.
Wow, free New Orleans airport wifi is crap.
I'm glad you were calm during the first half of the game yesterday, -t, because our viewing party was having hysterics. Second half was pretty fun, though.
Ugh, dead mouse on my floor. But I threw it away! I'm guessing it died from poison, which is good, I guess, but still ugh.
Must get moving. I'm off to take a brisk swim this morning ( [link] ) in support of shelter dogs. Wish me luck, or warmth or something.
I don't think I could do that, Brenda. Have fun!
Has anyone heard from Kathy A recently? I just read a comment on another site about a cat named "Imarna" and I though of her cat "Amarna" and then I started thinking that I haven's "seen" her here in awhile.
Luck and warmth, Brenda!!
Good on you, Brenda--what a lovely thing to to do! Also, brrrr.
Great news Cashmere!
That is awesome, Brenda. Good on you!
Cashmere, are you related to Beyonce?
I think the truth needs to be spoken.
