{{{sj}}}
Wesley: Feng Shui. Gunn: Right. What's that mean again? Wesley: That people will believe anything. Actually, in this place, Feng Shui will probably have enormous significance. I'll align my furniture the wrong way and suddenly catch fire or turn into a pudding.
'Conviction (1)'
Spike's Bitches 44: It's about the rules having changed.
[NAFDA] Spike-centric discussion. Lusty, lewd (only occasionally crude), risqué (and frisqué), bawdy (Oh, lawdy!), flirty ('cuz we're purty), raunchy talk inside. Caveat lector.
Barb - May 19, 2009 10:40:53 am PDT #10270 of 30000
“Not dead yet!”
Steph L. - May 19, 2009 10:42:09 am PDT #10271 of 30000
this mess was yours / now your mess is mine
sj, sometimes you need to have a meltdown. Your feelings are valid, and if having a meltdown is how you express those feelings, then melt down.
Being all stoic and stiff-upper-lippy about *real* pain is what won't actually do you any good.
Also? You are NOT useless.
Glamcookie - May 19, 2009 10:42:42 am PDT #10272 of 30000
I know my own heart and understand my fellow man. But I am made unlike anyone I have ever met. I dare to say I am like no one in the whole world. - Anne Lister
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Nora Deirdre - May 19, 2009 10:43:09 am PDT #10273 of 30000
I’m responsible for my own happiness? I can’t even be responsible for my own breakfast! (Bojack Horseman)
oh, sj. I am so sorry.
§ ita § - May 19, 2009 10:44:59 am PDT #10274 of 30000
Well not canonically, no, but this is transformative fiction.
Like Steph said--sometimes a meltdown is its own point.
I'm so frazzled and wound up right now I'd love a meltdown. Or a Valium. Something. I just...I got an important call this morning, which got disconnected, and it's a big government organisation whose phone lines keep telling me they're overloaded so call back some other time. I'd wait on hold for ages, I swear, if they'd just let me.
This is my life they're fucking with.
Ahem.
Better now.
Congrats to Sparky on the new baby! Go team!
Connie Neil - May 19, 2009 10:46:35 am PDT #10275 of 30000
brillig
Hubby's been having bad days. He's getting what is essentially carpal tunnel surgery on his elbows in the next few weeks because he can't hold on to things anymore. He tried to cook dinner last night and couldn't hold on to the utensils. His thumbs just don't work anymore.
Pain is very wearying. Sometimes it all just hits you with a hammer of exhaustion, and no right-thinking person would blame you for taking a break from coping.
ChiKat - May 19, 2009 10:49:27 am PDT #10276 of 30000
That man was going to shank me. Over an omelette. Two eggs and a slice of government cheese. Is that what my life is worth?
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ita, that sucks. I wish I could shove a valium through the internets to you.
I could use a mild relaxant right now. I had a job interview a couple of hours ago for a job I really really want. I think the interview went well, but you know you never really know. I'm supposed to hear back from them before 7pm tonight whether they want to schedule a second interview. I'm really glad it's moving forward so fast, but now I get to wait impatiently for a phone call that I will hopefully get. My nerves may not last another 4 hours.
sj - May 19, 2009 10:56:19 am PDT #10277 of 30000
"There are few hours in life more agreeable than the hour dedicated to the ceremony known as afternoon tea."
Thanks everyone. When I can't even get through a simple shopping trip to Target, I certainly feel useless and that I shouldn't want or don't deserve to have the life I want, like having children. I'm hiding in bed for now.
erikaj - May 19, 2009 10:59:49 am PDT #10278 of 30000
"already on the kiss-cam with Karl Marx"-
I can relate, although I doubt I ever gave more than a passing thought to having kids, just in case they were too much like me.
-t - May 19, 2009 10:59:53 am PDT #10279 of 30000
I am a woman of various inclinations and only some of the time are they to burn everything down in frustration
a local tv crew is coming to interview me tomorrow about GCS
! You will be fantastic, of course, Jilli.
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Lots of pain cessation and relaxation wishes for everybody. Ugh.