If it's graceful and poetic, it's probably not a nervous breakdown.

True fact.

cereal:

There's a line I like in a book, when a grown-up daughter is complimenting her mother on having been so tough during the hard times Mom has lived through and how Daughter doesn't think she could cope: "Rubbish, you'd be fine. The streets aren't full of weeping women sitting on curbs."

You might be having one, right now.

That might start explaining some stuff.

Come undone. Of all the phrases out there, that one I prefer (strange thing to prefer.) Growing up it was come unglued, but undone doesn't make me think of all the action figues we repaired with epoxy.

That said...I'm sorry, ita.

I think of undone as very victorian. I'm about to become unglued.

Kat, how are Noah and Grace? Is Grace having more surgery?

Grace had another biopsy today. My own issues held up her getting the biopsy for 4 days, which means I need to check my ego out of the picture and be more at ease about this.

Noah is doing well. Little man is tired and fussy today. But he had a big day. He tried breastfeeding which was a disaster, but there you go. (He takes a bottle and it's not like there is a deadline for him to figure this out... so it might not be or it might be a month). He also passed his hearing test yesterday and his carseat test today. He started the first set of immunizations (though it will take three days to complete them all). I guess I might be fussy too if I were he.

I'm spent too. But I'm having dinner with the erstwhile paperdol and we are getting her on the list to visit Grace so I can worry less about Grace neglect.

Tomorrow is another big day: pick up the $200+ in prescriptions that are being hand-compounded for Noah, hear back from the home health people about the monitor and the oxygen tanks, meeting with the occupational therapist for a developmental assessment of Noah, and something else, but I can't remember what that is.

What does compounding a prescription mean? I've been intending to ask that for forever, but only remember it when I see this one compounding pharmacy on Pico, and I'm not that much of a geek.

I choose...I choose unravelled. I'm pretty sure that's how nervously I am breaking down.

(ohmigod, Noah's going home soon! Grace has got to buck up so he doesn't start to think he owns the place!)

Compounding means to mix them on-hand for the patient. Compounded prescriptions are made-to-order. One of Noah's prescriptions, after insurance is $115, because it's being hand mixed to the right concentrations for him and in liquid form.

Aha. Let me hope I never have to be compounded for.