I am so mad at self about finances. I had a big cushion to do work on house, but never got work scheduled and frittered away most of the cushion. It will now take funds from savings.

I gotta say, I am surprised by the number of people who ask if I got a flu shot and when I say yes ask if they think that is what made me sick. No, I don't think getting a flu shot in September (when we got them here at work, so they generally know the timing) made me sick two months later. Jeesh.

I am afraid to really look at my finances because I know they are in bad shape, but I really need to so I can take steps to fix it. Before January. Blood oath (not that I have gotten to the movies...)

According to my dr. The flu shots here do not contain a live virus so not possible to give anyone the flu. The mists contain a live virus.

Of course just heard coworkers arguing about this today in order to justify them not getting the shot. They do not believe science.

I just had to ask my mom to pay my rent because my $525 is missing! I am so annoyed at myself and the bank!

That is so obnoxious of the bank, Sophia! Dang!!

My finances are pretty OK, which makes me certain that I'm missing something big that's going to wreck my life in the near future.

That sucks, Sophia. But your part in that debacle is actually pretty minor. If their service worked like it was supposed to you'd be fine!

Doubt it, Connie. (A) you've been through enough badness, a little while of smooth sailing is not going to put anything out of balance and (b) if something big does hit there's no reason to suppose it's because you've "missed something". You don't have to spend all your time trying to figure out what terrible thing is coming so you can be ready for it. There's no being ready, mostly.

Sales brought donuts this morning (not quite a donut fairy, they made sure they got credit) and now I am full of sugar-fueled feistiness.

JZ, that's awful about your friend, and so hard on his daughter. I'm sorry.

I keep dealing with fires and low hanging fruit, so the stuff on my list now is stuff that has been put off so long it might raise issues once I start acting on it. I expect to hear "I thought this had been taken care of already" at least once today.

msbelle, this is exactly my sitch all week. Everything now is highest priority and everyone wants their thing immediately. I just want to set it all on fire and walk away dramatically in slow motion.

you've been through enough badness, a little while of smooth sailing is not going to put anything out of balance

Yeah, you'd think a mind could relax better than that. Huh, maybe I do have a bit of PTSD, I can really relate to people who can't let go of the heightened paranoia. I stare at people who blithely believe that things will mostly work out OK with disbelief, and it's dawning on me that mine is possibly not the most rational reaction to life.