Buffy. When I saw you stop the world from, you know, ending, I just assumed that was a big week for you. Turns out I suddenly find myself needing to know the plural of 'apocalypse.'

Riley ,'Potential'


Natter 74: Ready or Not  

Off-topic discussion. Wanna talk about corsets, duct tape, butt kicking, or physics? This is the place. Detailed discussion of any current-season TV must be whitefonted.


JZ - Nov 18, 2015 1:53:04 am PST #9276 of 30003
See? I gave everybody here an opportunity to tell me what a bad person I am and nobody did, because I fuckin' rule.

She's his only official next of kin. He has two ex-wives and an ex-girlfriend locally, and some siblings in LA, but his daughter, S, is the only blood relative within 500 miles.

Her stepmom, A, told me she'd already gotten clearance from Cal to take next semester off because "my dad is going to need me there to take care of him after all his surgeries." A is tough-minded and pragmatic and very protective, and she and I talked a bit, and I told her very quietly that the impression I got from everyone I trusted (I had his permission to talk with the docs) was, contrary to the hopeful message everyone was getting from his family, that no, he likely won't leave the hospital alive.

I felt extremely unsure whether I had any right to burden anyone with it, but there was such a gap between what the doctors were saying and what S and her mom were saying, and I was so afraid that when it happened they'd just be blindsided by it. A said she was glad to hear something straight and blunt, and that someone in S's inner circle needed to know the true situation rather than what other people hoped it might be in order to really look out for S's best interests.

It's been wrenching to think of this good, brave kid peeling herself away from the world she's built at college and gearing herself up for six months of full-time caretaking that will almost certainly never happen.

He's in so much pain; if it's the endgame now, I'm almost relieved that it is coming fast and without lingering and torturing him any further, but not really. There's no relief in this, really.


Jesse - Nov 18, 2015 2:39:19 am PST #9277 of 30003
Sometimes I trip on how happy we could be.

Oh god, that's so awful.


billytea - Nov 18, 2015 2:53:22 am PST #9278 of 30003
You were a wrong baby who grew up wrong. The wrong kind of wrong. It's better you hear it from a friend.

I'm so sorry, JZ. Just heart-breaking.


-t - Nov 18, 2015 3:14:55 am PST #9279 of 30003
I am a woman of various inclinations and only some of the time are they to burn everything down in frustration

I'm so sorry, JZ. So hard.


Jesse - Nov 18, 2015 3:58:33 am PST #9280 of 30003
Sometimes I trip on how happy we could be.

So my officemate is working from home and I have not very many meetings today. DESPITE THAT, I will try not to just dick around online all day.


-t - Nov 18, 2015 4:07:46 am PST #9281 of 30003
I am a woman of various inclinations and only some of the time are they to burn everything down in frustration

Go Jesse!


-t - Nov 18, 2015 5:10:23 am PST #9282 of 30003
I am a woman of various inclinations and only some of the time are they to burn everything down in frustration

I am at work. I am dying for someone to ask me if I feel better so I can say "I'm heavily medicated, which is almost the same".

Probably will not actually be able to pull that off, so I'll just tell y'all.


Jesse - Nov 18, 2015 5:18:42 am PST #9283 of 30003
Sometimes I trip on how happy we could be.

Aw, I'm sorry you don't actually feel better!

Now I am really going to buckle down to work...


msbelle - Nov 18, 2015 5:24:44 am PST #9284 of 30003
I remember the crazy days. 500 posts an hour. Nubmer! Natgbsb

I've made a to do list, so it's almost like I've already been productive. I keep dealing with fires and low hanging fruit, so the stuff on my list now is stuff that has been put off so long it might raise issues once I start acting on it. I expect to hear "I thought this had been taken care of already" at least once today.

I did some personal TCB yesterday in setting up appts. I hope I can do a bit more of that today also.


sarameg - Nov 18, 2015 5:31:51 am PST #9285 of 30003

I'm pretty close to setting people on fire today.