Got my performance review today. Despite fantastic review comments and my boss putting me up for Performing Plus, management a couple of levels up bumped everyone in our group down to Performing. Which isn't bad, but it means when we get our raises, they will be the average amount. My boss is so frustrated. As am I. He won't know our actual raise percentages for another month or so - they aren't effective until April 1st.

The inability to psychologically intimidate my co-workers hampers my ability to get shit done.

Work on convincing them you have occult powers. It's working for me.

I had either forgotten or did not know that Jondalar and Ayla from Clan of the Cave Bear had a daughter named Jonayla.

Oh, right. That was somewhere in the back of my brain.

Despite getting an excellent review, I got bumped down from Superior to Commendable. And I know why, but I didn't discuss it with BossLady. I've been dealing with severe anxiety for about five months. It's all I could do to hold it together enough to finish my actual work, never mind the work they gave us from the temps they let go. I did a good job with my job, but not up to my normal standards, and the "stretch goals" projects got half-done. So my anxiety cost me about $1500 in raise I don't get. It's frustrating.

(I hate the whole concept of stretch goals. Fuck you, I'm stretching to my limit just to keep up with my actual work. Why isn't doing my job well enough to get a decent raise? Projects I'm actually meant to do outside of normal work hours, that affect my raise? that's BS.)

(I hate the whole concept of stretch goals. Fuck you, I'm stretching to my limit just to keep up with my actual work. Why isn't doing my job well enough to get a decent raise? Projects I'm actually meant to do outside of normal work hours, that affect my raise? that's BS.)

And if you meet your stretch goals, that becomes the new "normal."

Exactly, Dana. If the mule carries the extra load, that becomes his normal load. Then they add more. If the mule falls down under the load, they tell him he's not a team player and shoot him.

When I got this job, my BFF told me to start out slow and not give people expectations that I could do a super human amount of work. It has sort of worked out.

In Vermont I had...something other than Next door and it was all online sign up. I tries to sign up with Next door and never got the postcard thing. Which is weird because almost everything else Ivery tried to put in my PO box has come to the physical address but that.

Mom's signed up for it though so I can get info from her. I think it's mostly info about flooding, escaped chickens and a few other things.

management a couple of levels up bumped everyone in our group down to Performing.

I hate that.

Why isn't doing my job well enough to get a decent raise?

Sing it, sister.

Although the whole concept of "getting a raise" assumes that we are getting paid something close to what we are worth currently and most of us, I am pretty sure, are not. But the whole pricing-labor-as-commodity model pisses me off too much to really think about it clearly.

I have a half-formed idea about how the accumulation of wealth is a distortion of economies that should be increasing wealth AS A WHOLE. Someone should give me a grant to really figure that out, because I obviously can't devote enough time to it while I'm eking out a living.