If I had won the lottery, I'd buy this for Jilli. [link]

Oh, isn't that lovely. Man, one of us needs to win a really big lottery.

My mother would helicopter the fuck out of my job...except not. I mean, it would never occur to her, but she'd love to put the fear of god into anyone in my life, and have them treat me like she thinks I deserve. Which is why she doesn't get Colin's contact info, not even for emergencies. She's insane.

However, I refuse to even tell her how much I make. Just to make the point of non-interference.

I just did a thing. I went to a life drawing session, because I literally didn't pick up a pencil for weeks after my mother was diagnosed, and today was the first time I'd put pencil to paper since then--I couldn't even think of writing with one without getting anxious.

I still think everything I drew sucks (like, seriously, what the hell?) but I drew. Things. With a pencil. So that's out of the way.

I don't know how far away I am from fanart, if I'll even get back there. But I couldn't let the pencil be such an issue.

Good onya, ita! I keep saying I'm going to get back into writing, and I have a couple of fanfic plot bunnies running around my head (pure porn, admittedly, but I would be writing!) and I keep saying that I'm going to start a blog about my life in Connecticut.

Yay for the drawing class, ita!

I need to stop living in fear and start writing again. sigh. But it all just ends up stowed away on a hard drive somewhere.

I need the inspiration to post regularly on my teaching blog, too. Maybe we should band together to beat the writing demons down.

Also hi. I feel like I'm never around lately.

I didn't last the whole class--headache caused irritability. But it was really bothering me that I developed such dramatic and stupid drawing anxiety attacks. So hopefully this will ease things. It's fucking expensive, though. I'm not sure I can make regular thing of paying $20 to drive to hipper than hip WeHo to draw a chick in a wig.

eta: and it was certainly nothing worth sharing--I need to work my way back up to that, if ever

Did anyone watch last week's Grey's Anatomy? Did you like it? I found it resoundingly boring, and it's not because of the conceit--although it's way overused, it has been responsible for some of my favourite episodes of other shows (two in Supernatural alone). It just felt really empty of emotional content the way they did it.

eta²: *technically* worksafe breastfeeding buffista baby beanie

Yeah, I didn't see much point to it, ita--I didn't feel like we learned new things about the characters, nor did it have any impact on their futures, afaik, so it bored me mostly.

I did watch it and I did not like it. It seemed kind of half-hearted, like they just threw out a few ideas for changes and then didn't really run with them. Meh.

Also did not like GA. The alternate universe was dumb and not well written

Eta. Sorry--I thought that was vague enough, but now whitefonted

I thought it was all "Ah hah hah! See how wrong we could have gotten! Aren't you glad they could have been both whinier and even more boring!"

Lee--I think saying it's an alternate universe episode is a spoiler.