It's probably not helping her either that the pervading sentiment these days seem to be, "Not having a job is your fault and medicating is being weak and that's probably why you don't have a job." It's really mean and so hurtful to people, and I'm sorry your sister has internalized it.

They're not mutually exclusive! In fact, the right pills can make the job hunting way more successful.

That's what I told her! She's in no shape to go job hunting. She's upset with herself because six months ago, she could have taken unemployment and gotten job retraining paid by the state. She chose, instead, to take the temp gig and now they won't release her from the job. She's 48 years old with no degree. I understand why she's upset and depressed. But if she doesn't get her shit straight, she's going to keep being miserable.

You'd think she's listen to me--the only sister of hers with actual experience with ADs. They've saved me and made me an easier person to live with.

Oh, Cashmere, that sucks.

Also, I am ready to choke a bitch at UCLA's Procedure Unit. Hello. What time is surgery tomorrow? GROWL.

Whatever time they tell you will be wrong. But at least you'll be able to know one time it won't be!

Hey, Kat, Burrell, are we doing dinner Wednesday? I don't know if I'll be in the office that day or not, but 6 or later should be fine for me.

Dinner, yes, for me at least. I'll have a worn down and out kid in tow (sorry) so if you want to forego that's fine. Though I'm craving Indian and would love to see you.

Oh noes, more online training for really basic administrative crap. SO BORING.

And slow because the year for tracking training is the calendar year, so lots of people are accessing the training site and it's slow like molasses. Bah.

People, why won`t the Things All Clean Their Damn Selves? Although, I must say, the SO did the guest bathroom, bless him, and lots of other stuff. But I am just in the throes of All The Things. I should probably do minor housekeeping more than just when someone`s coming over, huh? Or maybe have people over more often. Okay, next before checking back here...deck stuff to shed, wood from shed to deck. Then clothes away, then dinner.

mac has a friend over. all he does with this kid is play the ds. The kid is nice enough, but is a bit hard to deal with. I think he might have aspergers. He will walk away from you when you are talking to him and won't make eye contact very often, he started inventorying things in our car when he got in, and he has asked things like "how did Mac get so tan?" "Is his dad tan?" I said that is just the way his skin is. Mac said he didn't have a dad. He didn't drop it, he asked "what happened to your dad?" Nothing is bad about him, but you just kinda never know what is going on.

A friend gave us a rum cake. It is yummy!

I should probably do minor housekeeping more than just when someone`s coming over, huh?

This is the story of my life. The frantic cleaning. The sudden realization that many things need to be fixed. The shoving things randomly under the be and into the attic, knowing that you'll never see those things again. The exhaustion. The vows to keep up with cleaning. The writing down of plans and lists. The backsliding. The despair....The frantic cleaning.