Probably not.

I'm paralyzed by indecision. I feel like crap. I didn't sleep well. Woke up crying this morning. The thought of 8 hours with 12 year olds is killing me. I could and should call in sick, but I've been out for 2 days at a training and don't have any sub plans just sitting around. What should I do? Call in sick and scramble to make up something for them to do? or call in sick and just say fuck it and leave a message to get a video at the library? Or just suck it up and spend a miserable day at work, possibly puking by 10:00 AM?

I vote for the video plan, Kat. I don't know details, but it's clear from your posts that you've been dealing with health issues for a while. If you feel this badly, you need to rest and take care of yourself.

Kat, could you combine the options? Like, be there yourself, but without heavily teaching, only that video from the library that a sub would probably get anyway?

Less guilt for not being there, less effort for actually running around and worrying?

[Edit: my best friend is giving birth right now. I can't do the slightest bit of work, no matter how I try to pull my concentration together.]

I just called a sub. I find when I'm there, Nilly, I'm usually sick at 10:00 until the end of the school day. It makes for a long day for me and some days I can handle it and some days it kills me. So today, it would be bad. I'm forgiving myself.

So today, it would be bad. I'm forgiving myself.

Very good.

It's one thing to try hard and make your best effort. It's another, to know yourself enough to realize that despite all that, some things simply couldn't work. Good for you for knowing yourself well enough.

Having the wisdom to know when to conserve your strength is a good thing!

Gronklies.

Woke up with with the back of my right shoulder, the right side of my neck, and part of that side of my upper back an enormous knot of super tight muscles. Don't know why. I've been trying to slowly stretch out, but ow, it hurts.

Hil, I hope you feel better soon.

So, a few posts ago I whine about how I can't concentrate because my friend is giving birth, right?

What happens a couple of minutes after I hit "Post"? Yup. She calls, and it's all behind her.

I should have whined so much sooner! I should have used my powers for doing good.

Now I'm too euphoric and happy to concentrate. Even to whine. I can't whine with such a huge smile on my face! If I babble about not being able to whine, is that whining?

The funny thing is, the Hebrew date today is the exact same date as the new baby's older brother (two years old).

Yay for your friend, Nilly!!

I find when I'm there, Nilly, I'm usually sick at 10:00 until the end of the school day.

Yeah, that's no good. Forgive yourself is a good call.

What happens a couple of minutes after I hit "Post"? Yup. She calls, and it's all behind her.