Deb, long and probably rambling response backflung.
We killed a homeless man on this bench. Me and Dru. Those were good times. You know, he begged for mercy, and you know, that only made her bite harder.
Spike ,'Sleeper'
The Great Write Way, Chapter Two: Twice upon a time...
A place for Buffistas to discuss, beta and otherwise deal and dish on their non-fan fiction projects.
Amy - Oct 26, 2005 10:14:34 am PDT #4743 of 10001
Because books.
Amy - Oct 26, 2005 1:06:25 pm PDT #4744 of 10001
Because books.
Ugh. I just wrote most of a chapter, and realized it's so slowly paced it's boring even to me.
So much for an afternoon of work. I seem not to be in a "creating sexual mood" at all.
deborah grabien - Oct 26, 2005 1:09:45 pm PDT #4745 of 10001
It really doesn't matter. It's just an opinion. Don't worry about it. Not worth the hassle.
So much for an afternoon of work
I'm pounding away at a few tweaks to Cruel Sister. Jenn and I agreed I can just send it straight on to Ruth, which gives me time, but I want it done and gone and off my desk and on its way.
Amy - Oct 26, 2005 1:14:42 pm PDT #4746 of 10001
Because books.
It's due November 1, right?
Me, too, actually. I wish I was at the "just tweaking" stage instead of pulling this novella out of my ass whole. One day I will get to the bottom of my deadline psychosis.
deborah grabien - Oct 26, 2005 1:26:47 pm PDT #4747 of 10001
It really doesn't matter. It's just an opinion. Don't worry about it. Not worth the hassle.
Nope - due 15 November.
Fucking Farrowen will not let me use both hands to type. Bad time for that.
Amy - Oct 26, 2005 1:32:27 pm PDT #4748 of 10001
Because books.
Yeah, you're way ahead of schedule.
Damn you, I say with affection.
Getting it off your desk will free up time for London Calling, though, I agree, and you know I'm all for that.
deborah grabien - Oct 26, 2005 1:38:59 pm PDT #4749 of 10001
It really doesn't matter. It's just an opinion. Don't worry about it. Not worth the hassle.
What I want - seriously - is a few days of zero stress.
Well, that, and for Lyssa to buy the Kinkaid Chronicles and fall at their feet and adore them.
I want my agent to be wrong about a few things, damn it. And that is NOT the way it should be.
Need to pack and finish laundry and go mail a quarterly health insurance cheque ($1604.70, OUCH).
Amy - Oct 26, 2005 1:56:54 pm PDT #4750 of 10001
Because books.
What I want - seriously - is a few days of zero stress.
Those days happen all too rarely in my world. And a big-ass OUCH to the health insurance check, indeed.
deborah grabien - Oct 26, 2005 2:02:05 pm PDT #4751 of 10001
It really doesn't matter. It's just an opinion. Don't worry about it. Not worth the hassle.
This is seriously infuriating.
I wanted to work on London Calling today. Instead, two hours behind on packing and errands, no shower yet, forget the hair colour and the manicure I wanted to get done for the trip, need to come back and do more on Cruel Sister instead....
GAH.
deborah grabien - Oct 26, 2005 4:01:57 pm PDT #4752 of 10001
It really doesn't matter. It's just an opinion. Don't worry about it. Not worth the hassle.
Taking a break from Cruel Sister to drabble.
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ab•re•ac•tion: release of emotional tension through recalling a repressed traumatic experience.
Is love traumatic? I don't know. It was certainly an experience, and emotional tension, well, now. I do know that the "release" part of this definition is horseshit. I've released nothing.
Maybe I need a different word, like Lillian Hellman's pentimento: peeling away top layer to reveal what's beneath. Old paint, pictures that scar the heart.
Or maybe there's a word I don't know, definition: past and present converge, until one is as vital and real as the other.
This is where I live. And the present?
Masks nothing.